9 weeks...down to the single digits!

Things are continuing to go well with the pregnancy, my amniotic fluid levels have normalized. Baby continues to grow, and move. It has been pretty exciting slowly getting more baby things. This week I picked up baby shampoo, and wash, and lotions, and bumb cream. My feet are starting to tell me that this baby is not far away, as they spend most of their day very swollen. Shoes are becoming an issue, good thing the weather here in Ontario is turning warm that I can be in sandals. It has been such a change in emotions and feelings. I am often unsure of what to talk about, because for so long it was about the hurt of not being parents, and now our whole world is changing, and it is often very overwhelming. 64 days till our due date, and counting. This baby is some one that we have been praying for, for a long time, and every time I feel the baby move, I am reminded of God's grace, and love and continued blessings, even when we could not see it. We look so much forward to meeting this little person.

I will be honest and say I am not looking forward to the process of getting to meet this little one, but I know that I have tremdous support to get through it and God will provide me with the means to get through the labour and recovery. I look forward to seeing my family again, seeing I have not seen them in 16 months, and I look forward to the public baptism of our baby. For a long time, I felt so broken every time I attended a baptism, because I did not understand why God would not allow a couple like Tom and I to be the parents that we have always longed to be. Children was something that we both wanted, but never expected it to take this long or cost as much as it has, but it is all worth it, every tear, every dollar, every day praying, is worth it. I am so thankful, that I can finally feel a baby move in my womb, that is something I imagined as a child, and now it is real to me as an adult. I am truly grateful for this amazing oppertunity, and blessing. I continue to pray for those who are still battling daily with infertility, I pray for peace, understanding and patience.

In other news, we have a new addition, a little girl, born to Sparky's Grin, she is doing well. At the same time we have more bad news to report as well. On Saturday afternoon we lost another horse this one being the baby of Stonebridge Cameo, she was still born. We are learning quickly that Horses can break the bank, but also your heart. So we have 3 babys, Three Mares, we were suppose to have 4 babies and 4 mares come out of all this. It was a tough start to this horse business, but we have learned and will continue to learn lots as time goes on. That is the lastest update of the Kroesbergens.

God Bless