Mothers Day

Mother's Day...Usually a good happy day for most moms.
Unless like me you have lost a child.
The heart ache is wrenching and to make it worse, the dream of
one day becoming a mother seems further and further away.
Not because we can't, but because it is taking to much out of me to
wait. Today I was suppose to go visit Grand parents and I could not help
but Cry as we were driving. The Helplessness that I am feeling is so
Over whelming. The Despiration is growing.
I have asked God So many times what he is doing, with us.
Why a loving home, with Empty Rooms Must remain Empty.
Why two loving people who long so much to be parents just can't right now
I feel so Alone, in a crowded room, I hurt every hour of every day.
Just longing for a peice of that feeling that I had the day that I found I was pregnant with my little Angel of Hope. Oh please Pray for me, and Tom.

I am happy for other mom's. But to day is not a good mothers day for me. I wish I could say it was. But my heart is breaking, and my hope is fading.

"LORD PLEASE HELP ME"