Tonight we visited with Friends that we have not really seen in a long time, it was really nice to catch up again. Life has seemed to run away with out us and now we have to catch up to everything that has gone on. I must say I am grateful to friends who love us despite our oddities or our great sadness and painful journey through infertility. We often felt that through the journey that we were alone, in our feelings of despair and loneliness, that there was no one that could understand and no way for us to make them understand. It really is a strange place to be, you know what you want, but you just can't have it for whatever reason, things fall by the wayside.
We have come to realize that despite the past, we need and want to grow up. God wants us to grow up in Him, that we would not need milk forever but truly grow in him, and seek him in all situations, no matter what they are, no matter what emotion, or feeling we may have. We are aware that we need a community, what we don't know is exactly where that is, or how or when we will get there. We do however want to grow up in a spiritual way. We want to face each day as a gift, and take it as it is. Recently I have gotten the cold shoulder from some, but I really don't care, for once in my life, I don't care. Because I know where I stand right at this moment, in the middle of God's will. I don't have time or want to have time to deal with little teenage scwabbles that for some reason us women have. They are petty, stupid and plain ridiculous. Got a problem with me then face me, if you don't have the guts, then keep it to yourself. God calls us higher then that, and paul many times said quit your fighting, figure it out. It is just not worth it. I am who I am by the grace of God, I am not perfect, but I am happy to be me. I am loved and cherished by my family, I am respected by those who's respect I earned, and I am made in the image of God.
Thankyou to friends that continue to care, pray for us, and love us no matter what state our heart is in. God Bless
